I actually would normally do anything to avoid it,
As in, I was once a serious emetophobe.
But tonight? I just want to be completely empty.
I feel depleted emotionally and physically and
want every part of me to reflect that.
This really isn’t the best place for me to be right now . . .
I have to finish preparing and then deliver the message
at the community Ash Wednesday service tomorrow.
God help me,